Not Now

When something unforeseen, unprepared for happens, my first reaction is “please God, not now” – that whatever it is that has occurred is one thing too many. I could maybe deal with it later, but “not now.’” Yet the demand has been made on me because God wants it to be made right then, and to say “not now” is to turn away some moment of grace that has been given specially to me. How thoughtless, how rude it seems to say “not now” to God’s gift. So I am teaching myself to say instead “please God, give me a hand with this.”